Saturday, September 17, 2011
I'm an ugly person
Thursday, September 15, 2011
don’t believe you baby like I did before
I feel messed up, lonely, disappointed and sad. But I can't do anything about it. I need a hug and a shoulder to cry on.
But there's no shoulder tonight so I guess I'll just settle for my pillow and hide under the sheets and cry.
On a brighter note, my cousin's living with us! It's like having a big sister for a change. This is gonna be exciting. MBS today with the family today was pretty fun.
Ciao bubs.
Sunday, September 11, 2011
boys.....
"It’s funny how all of us girls build this dream guy in our head, and we always end up falling too quickly for the ones that are just “good enough”, but they really don’t fit the idea in our heads at all. There always seems to be something missing from the ones we cling to so quickly. And usually that “something” is a huge “dream guy” priority.
The funny thing? When you least expect it, the actual guy you’ve been dreaming of will walk into your life at the exact moment you need him most. He’ll take your breath away, and sweep you off of your feet without even saying a word. The things you love about him won’t be the things you ever loved about anyone else. It will be the way he talks, and how his awkwardness fits yours perfectly. The way he doesn’t try to fit in with everyone around him. The way his eyes smile, and how he makes your heart smile. The way that a hug can mean so much more than any other hug you’ve ever experienced. And the way that you can’t wipe the actual smile off of your face for hours after seeing him."
For the record, i believe that "dream guy" we girls all fantasize about, do not exist at all. Even if he does, behind that perfection, there will always be flaws. There will always be that douchey part of him you want to murder multiple times. Nobody is perfect. And yes, we should not expect so much. cause if we don't, we don't get disappointed. or too disappointed. Just get over it. The dream guy in the films we all fantasize about who appears infront of you unexpectedly, with flowers in his hand (as much as i say i hate flowers, cmon im a girl) , an "im sorry" card on the other, with that cute sorry smile. It does not happen in real life. In the real world, all you get is just 25 miss calls and spam text that says 'sorry ok'. No, the guy that knows exactly what's on your mind, pleases you because he knows exactly what you want, does.not.exist. No, the guy in those sappy movies that 'sweeps you off your feet' because of the things he do that will make you feel his love.... he does not exist.
Even though i make it a point to everyone how i hate all these sappy lame romantic shit. I'm a girl......................which girl in the right mind won't feel touched?
xx
How come when I reach out my finger, It feels like more than distance between us?
followed fats to cut his hair. this saloon only had gay hairdressers how cute.
5 hour long shopping with a 5 year long friend. The day i fixed my KFC cravings! Thanks faith shopping again soon ♥
Shopping part two with two of my favourite girls. It was so fun!!
Teacher's day celebration & Clarkequay/Chinatown with the girls!
Sleepover @ Claras. crazy fun~
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Bold what you have done
Appearance
- I have/had piercings besides the ears.
- I want piercings besides the ears.
- I have many scars
- I tan easily.
- I wish my hair was a different color.
- I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
- I have/want a tattoo.
- I can be self-conscious about my appearance.
- I have/had braces.
- I have more than two piercings.
Embarrassment
- Disney movies still make me cry sometimes.
- I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
- I’ve glued my hand to something.
- I’ve laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose
- I’ve had my pants rip in public.
- I’ve touched something sharp/hot/etc to see if it would hurt.
Health
- I’ve gotten stitches.
- I’ve broken or dislocated a bone.
- I’ve had my tonsils removed.
- I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
- I’ve had chicken pox
- I’ve had a major operation
Experiences
- I’ve gotten lost in my city.
- I’ve seen a shooting star.
- I’ve wished on a shooting star.
- I’ve seen a meteor shower.
- I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
- I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
- I’ve slapped someone.
- I’ve kissed someone underwater.
- I’ve crashed a car.
- I’ve been skiing.
- I’ve been in a musical.
- I’ve auditioned for something.
- I’ve been on stage.
- I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
- I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
- I’ve pranked someone.
- I’ve ridden in a taxi.
Honesty / Crime
- I’ve been threatened to be arrested.
- I’ve broken a law.
- I’ve done something I promised someone I wouldn’t.
- I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
- I’ve sneaked out
- I’ve lied about my whereabouts.
- I’ve cheated while playing a game.
- I’ve been in a fist fight.
Death
- I’m afraid of dying.
- I hate funerals.
- I’ve seen someone/something die.
- Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
- I have attempted suicide.
- I’ve thought about suicide before.
- I’ve written a eulogy for myself.
Materialism
- I own over 5 rap CD’s.
- I’m obsessed with anime/manga.
- I collected comic books.
- I own a lot of makeup.
- I own something from Pac Sun.
- I own something from The Gap.
- I own something I got on E-Bay.
- I own something from Abercrombie.
- I thrive on compliments.
- I thrive on hate.
Random
- I can sing low key.
- I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
- I open up to others easily.
- I watch the news occasionally or always.
- I don’t like to kill bugs.
- I sing in the shower
- I’m a morning person.
- I’m a sports fanatic.
- I twirl my hair.
- I care about grammar.
- I love to spam friends.
- I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day.
- I bake well.
- My favourite colour is either white, yellow, pink, blue, red, black, purple, or orange.
- I would wear pajamas to school.
- I like Martha Stewart.
- I laugh at my own jokes.
- I eat fast food weekly.
- I’ve not turned something in and still got an A in a certain class.
- I can’t sleep if there’s a spider in the room.
- I’m really ticklish.
- I like white chocolate.
- I bite/used to bite my nails.
- I’m good at remembering names.
- I’m good at remembering dates.
- I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
People
- ..used to ask if I was anorexic/bulimic
- ..have said I’m skinny.
- ..have said I’m ugly.
- ..have said I’m pretty.
- ..have spread rumors about me.
- ..force me to eat.
- ..say I eat too much.
- ..say I eat too little.
Eating
- I’ve lost weight.
- I’ve gained weight.
- I’m at my thinnest.
- I’m at my biggest.
- I’ve lost weight and kept it off.
- I’ve lost weight, but gained it back.
- My weight affects my mood. A lot.
- I diet.
- I am/was vegan/vegetarian.
- I exercise.
- I’ve fainted from exhaustion.
Family
- I’ve sworn at my parents.
- I’ve planned to run away from home before.
- I’ve run away from home.
- I have a sibling less than one year old.
- I want kids in the future.
- I’ve had kids.
- I’ve lost a child.
Relationships
- I’m engaged.
- I’m married.
- I’m single.
- I’ve gone on a blind date.
- I have/had a friend with benefits.
- I miss someone right now.
- I have a fear of abandonment.
- I’ve gotten divorced.
- I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
- Someone has/had feelings for me when I didn’t have them back.
- I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
- I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
- I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
Sexuality
- I’m a cuddler.
- I’ve been kissed in the rain.
- I’ve hugged a stranger.
- I’ve kissed a stranger.
Bad times
- I regularly drink.
- I can’t swallow pills
- I can swallow numerous pills at a time without difficulty.
- I’ve been diagnosed with depression at some point.
- I have/had anxiety problems.
- I shut others out when I’m upset.
- I don’t have anyone to talk to when I’m upset about something personal.
- have taken/take anti-depressants.
- I’ve slept an entire day before.
- I’ve plotted revenge.
the least you expect, the less dissapointment you get.
we are both fatties
