Fidelity

You're not gonna promise to each other that you will not disappoint one another, because at some point, you will. what is important is you don't go away, you don't escape, you don't leave one another just because you were disappointed.

Lost.

This whole week has been nothing but a terrible roller coaster ride. I just can't wait to get off it and hurl it all out. But something is keeping me from throwing it all away. I feel afraid. Afraid to let my feelings take control because I've been there done that. I've tried following my heart before, and it has done nothing but hurt it. I feel like becoming who I was before. Before I met you. That girl who never cared about anyone but herself, who refuses to trust and most importantly, built a wall away from that awful thing called love because all it does is hurt you. I really am tired of feeling shit. I just want to be genuinely happy and I hope i made the right choice giving this another chance. I hope this last chance would correct all the other misused chances. I honestly will not tolerate dishonesty again. I rather get hurt with honesty than have it coming surprisingly right at my face making a big deal out of how foolish I am. Even better, don't be dishonest. If you can handle that. If youre mature enough for that. Goodnight world.

On a lighter note, mom's back from the states after 3 very long weeks. It feels so good having her breathing the same air again. I've missed you mum. Thank you for the lovely Steve madden wedges. And the whole box of candies. And the clothes I probably wouldn't wear. Mwa!

W r e c k

All i feel is pain.
How would you feel, if you were in my shoes.
Being lied to the whole entire year.
I gave my all.
I gave up everything.
Thinking you would too.
But I was nothing but a fool.
I am a fool.
Maybe i wasn't worth it.
Maybe i'm not worth it.
I was never the most important.
You were always my top priority.
Im.............so dumb.
I'm tired.
Someone save me from this hell. Please.

EVERYTHING
WE
WERE
WAS
A
LIE.