Lost.

This whole week has been nothing but a terrible roller coaster ride. I just can't wait to get off it and hurl it all out. But something is keeping me from throwing it all away. I feel afraid. Afraid to let my feelings take control because I've been there done that. I've tried following my heart before, and it has done nothing but hurt it. I feel like becoming who I was before. Before I met you. That girl who never cared about anyone but herself, who refuses to trust and most importantly, built a wall away from that awful thing called love because all it does is hurt you. I really am tired of feeling shit. I just want to be genuinely happy and I hope i made the right choice giving this another chance. I hope this last chance would correct all the other misused chances. I honestly will not tolerate dishonesty again. I rather get hurt with honesty than have it coming surprisingly right at my face making a big deal out of how foolish I am. Even better, don't be dishonest. If you can handle that. If youre mature enough for that. Goodnight world.

On a lighter note, mom's back from the states after 3 very long weeks. It feels so good having her breathing the same air again. I've missed you mum. Thank you for the lovely Steve madden wedges. And the whole box of candies. And the clothes I probably wouldn't wear. Mwa!