Black/white

Fiction, when we're not together

Mistaken for a vision, something of my own creation

Come real love, why do I refuse you?

Cause if my fear's right, I risk to lose you

And if I just might wake up alone

Bring on the night

Do something

Can't sleep... It's driving me nuts. But got me thinking. I really need to start doing things. Like my FINAL YEAR PROJECT. And actually start sewing.... And bulk up (haven't been eating much as planned) and cook.... And knit... (My materials are all left untouched) ALTHEA YOU NEED TO START DOING THINGS DAMMIT.

This is me. I'm a mermaid!!!!!

things fall, apart

Right now, just when it all just falls into place, falls apart again. I don't know why i'm feeling this way, or whats making me act the way i am. It probably is because im afraid of losing you. im afraid of you getting sick of me. im afraid of you fading away. im afraid of changes. im afraid of being thrown away like a piece of junk all over again. im afraid to get hurt, afraid to know what it'd be like in the future. I don't know. Im just whole lot of fear.

Take me back. To the happy days.

The nights are the worst.

I'm sorry for everything, i know i suck at everything. Truth.