Her heart was a secret garden and the walls were very high. People think she built it so no one can climb, but the real thing is that she did it because she's thinking if someone would actually care to knock it down. She's tough looking but inside she's breaking. She seems strong but she's fragile and vulnerable. Some would see her smiling but in reality she just want to cry and that someone would actually care to be there, to hear those sobs and wipe those tears away. The last time she felt genuine happiness was when she was a kid, when she's completely oblivious about how the world could be so cruel and unfair. No one really cares, that's why she's always reluctant to trust people because in the end they always end up leaving her, they always tell her that they will always be there, but no one was there when she needed it the most. She felt like no one actually care about here mere existence. people can't blame her if she's an insecure mess cause they are the main reason why she act like that. People would point out her flaws like she doesn't know it yet and of how some could be so gullible about her feelings, and that she's hurting. they don't know how its like to be her, no one, unless they would be put in the same position as her, they can never really tell what's it like to be her, to be compare, be judge, and to not be accepted. She surround herself with positive people thinking that she can be happy, at least for a while, but at night, she cries, because having dry eyes at day, doesn't always mean dry pillows at night. She tried to ease the pain for many times. she calm herself in front of other people, but inside she's screaming. She is not fine. that may took her long to find the path to where she could find happiness, the genuine kind of course, but she's not yielding and she won't let anyone make a mockery out of her. she'd be tenacious because she know that she deserve better. she knows that some have it a lot worse and that's why she has prepared herself for the worst. maybe not now or anytime soon but eventually she'll be happy