Black/white

Fiction, when we're not together

Mistaken for a vision, something of my own creation

Come real love, why do I refuse you?

Cause if my fear's right, I risk to lose you

And if I just might wake up alone

Bring on the night

Do something

Can't sleep... It's driving me nuts. But got me thinking. I really need to start doing things. Like my FINAL YEAR PROJECT. And actually start sewing.... And bulk up (haven't been eating much as planned) and cook.... And knit... (My materials are all left untouched) ALTHEA YOU NEED TO START DOING THINGS DAMMIT.

This is me. I'm a mermaid!!!!!

things fall, apart

Right now, just when it all just falls into place, falls apart again. I don't know why i'm feeling this way, or whats making me act the way i am. It probably is because im afraid of losing you. im afraid of you getting sick of me. im afraid of you fading away. im afraid of changes. im afraid of being thrown away like a piece of junk all over again. im afraid to get hurt, afraid to know what it'd be like in the future. I don't know. Im just whole lot of fear.

Take me back. To the happy days.

The nights are the worst.

I'm sorry for everything, i know i suck at everything. Truth.

I don't know

Everytime i try to post an entry about how i feel, my mind just suddenly goes blank and empty. like a blackhole.

I feel disappointed in myself for everything that has happened, and my stupidity, my careless, impulsive actions, which always ends up hurting someone or fucking something up. Its like im made for this. im made to mess up every single good thing in my life.

I miss what i used to have, my old friends, my stc friends, friends who arent my friends anymore because i do nothing but hurt the people around me.

I've come to realise i really suck at being with people. I suck being a friend, a girlfriend and a daughter.

I am not proud of myself.

But I know I've changed, or at least better.... but i guess some things are just meant to be left broken.

xx

Summertime Ssssssadness

< 11 Jan

Random 2013 Photospam

Eyebags overload

I miss school 

New Years Day

Day out with my favouritest people <3

My ah ma hee

Faith's 20th Birthday @ Zouk <3

Ewf ^.^

Holland V with my lovely IJ girls <3

4/7 of Team Charlie <3

4/8 of my stc clique <3

3crowns with bentyr

xx

Been keeping myself busy with internship. Interning at CAG has been nothing but amazing. I don't want it to end :(